worked my brain and fingers all day.  tiredness filled me.  this is when i realized, i need to move on.  I need to move somewhere that i am either closer to my family or closer to the outdoors.  southern california is nice, my sister and her kids are beautiful, but i don't want to work in the situation i have put myself in anymore.  My parents need my love near them, and I haven't found the man of my dreams out here so why do I feel the need to stay here.  I do have good girlfriends, and I do love the beach.  But is the beach and girlfriends enough>??  I never really had great girlfriends in vegas.  Maybe that is why I choose to stay out here.  I like the weather, thats for sure.  But when major things start happening I would like to be on a farm.  I need the sun.  that is all.   love.